Would you mind closing the bedroom door?

" then we won't get awkward. " He said.
He's the second one who brought me this bad feeling.

First is Mr.James who used to crushes on my 10y best friend-Kay.
He was a pretty good potential guy, graduated in law degree and bar in Cardiff.
Still being friend with him and he's the one changed me a lot in my life.
Studied hard for him. Because I was lack of confidence in front of him.

No one knows I liked him that much. Included himself.

I hate this feeling.
The guy I like and he used to crushes on my best friends.
Even tho it's a pass tense, but still not feeling well to this shit.
Because they will closer than you ever !! Turned on all my jealousy in mind.

Second one who brought me this bad feeling - Mr. Maya. I met him last month - June.
He's my cousin's friend. I was being with Mr A.B last time.He looks cute and funny when he's dancing, kinda looks like a turtle =D

I didn't even get a chance to know him on the first met.

16th July second met, I got super drunk and he was taking care of me a whole night.
Haha thanks for Adam too, He took me hundred glass of water.
I like Maya chest and the way he taking care a girl.
The only thing keep sucking in my mind was my cousin keep hugging him.
Of course I know Maya used to crushes on my cousin and in a serious way.
I can feel that from the way he treats my cousin.

Anyways it was a great night.
He took my phone and doesn't allowed to me keep texting someone who never reply.
I hit my head and cried on his chest when I hear justin bieber's song.
I like he hold my hand when we walking on the street.
We were on the first try on W that a chinese guy brought.

When he was alone in Zian room, he called me in and asked me to close the bedroom door.
To avoid getting awkward, but my cousin and the chinese guy were still making us awkward.
Haha we were like saying nothing and looking to the one who open the door.
I was too drunk, sleepy and don't like the feeling. So we did nothing and sleep.

He was gentlemen a whole night, never touched my body.
Maybe I am not that sexy as my cousin does.
Everyone thought I was the younger one or never expected my real age.
Maybe I acted or wore too childish, always like a little girl instead of a lady.

Still wishing to met him again.
Sent a request to his Instagram and knew he is preparing for his muay thai soon.

Like the guy who doesn't smoke.
So I am going to quit too.

*decided to bring every of my boyfriend to the place i raised.
New land house with infinity pool and lake gonna be hided.

Pretend to be a zero, I am not going to take anyone advantage.
I hate cheat. Because action always speaks louder than word.
Just looking someone who could brings happiness to each other's lives.
Not for marriage, Not for parents, Not for luxuries.

Cherish today and treasure the present moment.
Who knows what will come first ? Tomorrow or the unexpected?